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Jayden’s Diary – Episode 4

 



 Hi Diary,

The night before the day I left for school, Mum stuffed about five spiritual books into my box, telling me to take turns reading them every morning and night. “With time, the works of darkness will be totally undone, dear”, she said. My confusion multiplies each time I hear words like this, because, for crying out loud, why all these dramatic insinuations because of a few questions I needed answers to?

Well, I wish Mum knew her books were as good as abandoned; she would have kept them to herself. Dad didn’t talk to me throughout that morning. We had a heated argument because I said I was not following them to church for service.

I couldn’t keep going to a place where I expect to enjoy light, only to leave with more puzzles topped on the already complicated ones I am carrying. To me, there was no point wasting my time. It feels like everything happened so fast. Mum and Mason couldn’t believe I looked Dad in the eyes. It was the first, and I’ll like to hope, the last time, that would happen.

“I work my fingers to give you the best, oh, is it wrong that I gave you education? Are you now so lettered that you will turn against the faith in which I have raised you, Jayden”? “I’m sorry Dad, but I believe it is best I figure things out myself for now” I replied. And that was the truth; I need to figure things out myself because no one will help me too.

As my family left for church without me that day, I felt sorry for making my Dad feel the way he did. I just wish he knew how difficult these times and things are, for me. But I’ll face it – he does not. Nobody does. Not my Mum, not the church, and for my friends – they think I have backslidden too, and I have. As a matter of fact, my Mum calls them, prays with them for me, and tells them to keep an eye on me.

Mrs. Coker somehow probably fears the devil might act funny and make me disappear from the school, someday. Things that, rather than get me worried, now make me want to laugh.

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  1. AnonymousMay 3, 2021 at 1:41 AM

    Awwww��

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  2. OmokhuwaMay 3, 2021 at 1:50 AM

    Wow.

    This is heartbreaking.

    I relate with the puzzles part soo much.


    I'm rooting for You, Jayden Coker.
    It was worth the wait, Thank you! The Feranmi Oyedele.

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  3. UnknownMay 3, 2021 at 2:03 AM

    Hmmm,Hayden's plight is a real one.I don't have a solution to it but God does.
    One thing I know that raises such is when we pry too much in religion,reading so many unhealthy books that questions our faith.I have observed this is the root.

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  4. AnonymousMay 3, 2021 at 5:17 AM

    Hmmn... It is well bro
    You'll find the right answers soon

    Don't stop writing, keep the pen moving ��

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